Live with Eternity in Mind

You know I try to live everyday with eternity in mind. I live for the day when I stand before the LORD and give an account for my life and how I lived it out. I believe that in that day everything will be made plain, everything that was hidden will be brought out in the light. Like my motives, my heart, my actions, and my words will be known to everyone. I live for that day like it is what matters the most to me.  For seasons on the earth it looks like we are getting away with something, it looks like, since GOD is not doing anything or saying anything that my horrible actions toward HIS bride, HIS children, HIS leaders or my family are okay. But in that day all of this will matter.

Here is a snippet of my history with GOD and how I learned to think differently:

I have had four people I knew who died come back and visit me after they died. I say visit because of how it felt to me, but this is just my thought. Some people were glad to visit me and one person was not happy. There were things I instantly knew because of my connection with Holy Spirit, in the experience:

1. I knew they were given visitation rights on earth for a limited time to visit who ever they wanted.
2. I knew that they knew everything past, present and future like specific events and situations
3. I knew they could see the motives behind every situation on earth.
4. I knew how they felt about me

I remember one experience the gentleman was very angry with me. When he came back to tell me, I instantly wept and repented. I thought I will never do that again. Here is the story; I was at a church where our pastor was asked to turn in his resignation, by our deacon board. As the church split, this gentleman I will say his name is Greg was torn as to which way to go.  Even though he never verbalized his feelings I could feel Greg’s toss should I stay or should I leave with the pastor who was asked to hand in his resignation. The people he connected with and admired were staying at the Church and his family was leaving the Church to follow the pastor at his new Church. So me, being brilliant and all decided I would pray to help his decision but my prayer was that of frustration because to me it was so obvious that GOD was getting ready to do something amazing with the people who stayed. So I prayed in a way I knew he would leave quickly and he did just that. Here is the scene when Greg visited me: I am driving in my car years have passed since I prayed my brilliant prayer that would cause Greg to make the wrong decision. We did not keep in touch and he was not someone I thought about because we didn’t have that kind of relationship. Now I did not know Greg had passed away that morning, but I felt his presence come into my car while driving. I felt angry all of a sudden because of my brilliant prayer years prior. I instantly started repenting and I had the feeling that I had done something horrible. I felt like he could see how things would have been different in his life had he chose to stay at the church. It was as if this moment, years prior, was pivotal in his life and he chose wrong because of the influence in my prayer. Obviously, this was not a good experience but it taught me a powerful lesson one I will never forget.

I remember another good friend of mine passed away and she came to visit me. Her name was Cassandra her death was a sudden illness and a very quick decline. Cassandra and I were in a little argument where I looked like the bad guy in her eyes, so we were not speaking to one another prior to her quick decline. Her death was a complete shock to me because of the speed in which it happened and we had not reconciled our differences. The morning after she passed, I was not aware of her passing because it happened late in the night. But that morning I was headed to Charlotte North Carolina to attend Church but I felt like I shouldn’t go. I felt like Holy Spirit was impressing on me to stay home. But I was living so much out of reasoning and not listening to Holy Spirit, I went any way. On my way back from Charlotte headed towards Winston-Salem, I am driving and all of a sudden the love of the Father floods my car. I instantly started weeping, my driving slowed down and thoughts were flooding my mind. Cassandra was talking to my Spirit, even though she passed away in the natural. All I could think about to tell her is how much I loved and respected her as friend and mentor in my life. I just kept saying, “I love you so much, I love you so much,” it pained me that we were not on speaking terms so I was eager to tell her my feelings. I knew at that moment that she could see the truth of our argument and that she was not mad, I felt like I heard her say you were right. She proceeded to talk to me about Kim a young teenager she was a Spiritual mom too. I felt like she was trying to tell me how great everything was and how my future was so great!  I felt like the whole purpose of her visiting was she wanted me to know how my future was going to be amazing. I could feel her move back and forth around me with excitement for me. This experience with the supernatural realm ended and it left me marked for life.

I feel like these visitations taught me to live with eternity in mind. I know from these experiences that our motives good or bad will be clear to those we hurt. In both experiences they could see my motives from events in the past. In both experiences I knew how they felt about me, one person was angry and the other excited. In the experience with Cassandra I can see why Holy Spirit was impressing on me not to go to Charlotte. I believe things we have done to people will be known to everyone. Things we did that changed the course of people’s lives’ in a bad way because of our impatience or frustrations with them will be made known. Every prayer and influence we had on a person’s future ministry will be made plain nothing will be hidden. The scripture that comes to mind is everything hidden in darkness MUST be brought out in the light. In that day it will manner to you, how you treated the body of Christ, leaders, family, friends or strangers. In that day you will only wish you could fix those situations where people got hurt. In that day every assumption that skewed the way we see people and effected how we treated them will manner.

In the prophetic culture there are a couple of things that I taken notices of that we have to stay away from. First is thinking we know every detail of a person’s life because we are reading their mail sort-of-speaking. I tend to attach assumptions to people when I see things prophetically but the truth is I only see in part. I will never know a person’s whole life history with GOD because HE will NEVER give that kind of control to us. These assumptions tend to lead me to make decisions that are not true about people and this effects how I treat them.

So I made up my mind since I have had these experiences I need to live with eternity in mind. I live to hear HIM say WELL DONE my good and faithful servant. I will not live to see what I can get away with on earth. I will not think I can treat HIS bride with contempt and it not be made known. I will not live with assumptions about people when I only have a part of the picture. I got a prophetic word that I have no guile in me, which means no deceit, no trickery, no cunning ways. I like that when I get bullied or taken advantage of that I want to love the person and not find cunning ways to get back at them. This is not to say I will not pray for GODS protection in my life. This is because I made up my mind I do not live for today but I live for eternity. If I die its gain if I live its Christ so either way I win what manners is the motive behind everything that I do because I want to hear HIM say WELL DONE!